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All my life I have written upon these tablets which are liquid and electricity and not emerald, I have recorded the games like a nun, in a distant place, with wide leafy trees over our peaked roofs and exotic fruits on our plates and yes, hurricanes that last for years with no eye in sight, in hope, in abject servitude. I dream as I have always dreamt, of little more than the small, saintly knock at my door, and a woman in green with a soft smile and ten silver cups gathered in her hands, to take me in her arms and show me the scale of bone, show me the weight of my soul.
But that is a long time yet, and there is work here, and the storm outside blows on.
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